Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Atharo Bhatir Desh


Atharo Bhatir Desh or the Land of the eighteen ebb tides evokes the quintessential essence of the world’s largest mangrove forests or Sundarbans. The story narrates this essence through the eyes of a tiger as it interacts with people within the landscape. It captures different facets of the experiences that the animal encounters (using masks by the locals to prevent attacks, interaction with people, interactions with researchers through camera trapping and lastly radio-collaring). The story provides a vivid description of the life of both the tiger and the people who share this sinking space. 

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The eyes staring back were devoid of expression. Neither did they blink nor did they show any fear, which would be the norm before they surrendered to death! I felt unnerved. Something was different, but I was unable to gauge what it was. Before I could apprehend, the dinghy sailed off carrying away the group of men only to realize that I have been thoroughly duped. The men had deceived me with a false face! Perhaps they were blessed by the Bonbibi and I, the animal incarnate of Dakshin Ray, resigned to my fate- an empty stomach for the time being!

These forests have been my home since I was born. To the world, these forests are known as “Sundarban” (the beautiful forest), a name they got from the Sundari trees in the forest. Five years ago, when I first set my foot as a cub, I was enthralled by the denseness of the place, though it took a while maneuvering the deep mud and occasional jabs from the aerial roots. But over time, as I grew, the walks on the mud banks followed by a swim through the channels turned out to be extremely calming. But these forests, beautiful as they are, are equally unforgiving! I was one when I lost my mother. After a couple of unsuccessful hunts, she paid a visit to the Rajat Jubilee village in search of a goat. My mother’s presence was caught in a whiff by the neighborhood dogs (such morons!) waking up the whole village. The next thing I saw was a sea of people engulfing her and a din of sounds. I never saw her back again in the forest nor did I get her scent.

The month of Chaitra is one of the busiest times of the year and also a time when I get lucky with easy prey! Moule (honey collectors) come into these forests in search of the golden liquid. Sometimes when I do not feel the pang to hunt, I sit and observe their ritual. They are usually so engrossed that they rarely notice my presence! The dinghies line up along the bank and the men move in groups. These guys are expert in tracking these tiny insects and sometimes occasionally follow the macaques in the forest. But I cannot bear when they smoke up the Khalsi or the Geona tree to drive away the bees for collecting honey! The smoke irritates me and it is time for me to move out. As I walk away, in some ways I give a new lease of life to the Moule who come to the forest with an unwritten summon of death.

The people who reside here live a harsh life just like me. The Moule, fishermen and the Meendharas (prawn seed collectors) tread this landscape every day with a prayer to safeguard themselves and their family. Their womenfolk offer their prayers to Bonbibi who is the protector of all inmates, particularly when their men venture into the forests. Unlike the chital which makes a hunt extremely tiresome in the sweltering heat, these guys are far easier to handle! One slap of my paw and they lie lifeless!  In the last five years, I have killed three men; two honey collectors and a fisherman. While one of the kill was out of sheer hunger, the other two was more in retaliation when I was taken by surprise. After an unsuccessful chital hunt and a measly meal of crabs, I was getting impatient. A honey collector was getting back to the boat to join his group and it would be foolish to miss this golden opportunity of getting easy food. The last thing I could remember was the fear-stricken faces of the men in the group when I dragged their mate into the deep forest.

Although I am revered and feared, I soon realized that I am not the only reason for their death. Occasionally people do fall prey to the saltwater crocodiles that come out to bask on the banks. Though they may look quite docile when they are relaxing, one realizes the power of their jaws when they lunge forward to snap. I was lucky to have escaped once (of course I was much younger then!) but over time, I have learnt to maintain my distances. Once I overheard a conversation between two fishermen waiting in the boat about how a large fish (shark like creature) maimed his friend’s wife while she was collecting prawn seed along the creeks.

A few days back, when I crossed a channel and entered the forest on the other side, the sound of a boat propeller slowing down caught my attention. As I peered through the maze of mangroves, I could see the boat lodged at the bank and a group of people scrutinizing the trail I just walked. One of them was curiously bending down with a device that went on clicking incessantly. The people were having an animated discussion and though I had a strong urge to eavesdrop on their conversation, the prospect of stalking an unmindful deer fawn ahead seemed more wholesome than anything else! A couple of days later while strolling in the same place, I encountered the leg of a goat hooked on a stick. As I pounced to grab a morsel (since it would be completely insane to let go of this free food!), from the corner of my eye I could see another pole on which a device was mounted. However this device looked queer. This was certainly not what I had seen with the person on the boat! I decided to finish my snack first and then inspect this half-foot long entity that looked really fancy. I peered, sniffed, licked it with my rasping tongue and even tried to take it off with my canines but that thing was just like a stone-lifeless! What I found even more amusing was that when I crossed the channel to the next island, I found the same device but instead of a goat leg dangling, there was some sweet water in a pot! It suddenly dawned that whenever I encountered this half-foot device, there would be these goodies. To be frank I was not bothered with the device at all, it did me no harm anyways. Instead these freebies provided an occasional grub and I would look forward to them during my strolls.

It is really hot and musty in most times of the year here, but there a few months which offer great relief from the heat. During this time, I love to warm myself in the morning sun and watch the birds gliding over me in a frenzy. However, this is also the time when the noisier bigger boats operate in the wider channels carrying people who traverse these waterscapes apparently with an immense optimism to see me! And believe me, in my heart of hearts, I love to prick that bubble of optimism with full vigour by moving deeper into the forests. At times I am gracious enough to give them a glimpse but there are times when I get annoyed with the way they react! They would scream in excitement and their devices would be snapping away ceaselessly. That’s when I feel a strong urge to jump onto their boat, slap the loudest of them all and run back into the forests! It is as simple as this- just the way you maintain certain etiquette while eating, you should know that there is a decorum that needs to be upheld while visiting a forest.

I and my tribe have an unusual equation with the people living here. We are a symbol of both awe and terror. For many years, my tribe have been able to maintain this fear and reverence. I have even heard of villages where no menfolk are alive and there are many who bear the scars, a signature that I have etched not just on their frail bodies but also on their minds. But their agony of loss or the reminiscences have not been able to take away their faith on Bonbibi or even Dakshin Ray. Many a times we win, but there are times when tables are turned and our fates are decided by the same people whose fate we decided when they ventured in to our territory!

 I was an unusually hot summer and I was feeling exhausted and frustrated after missing a prized chital catch. After some contemplation, I decided to pay a visit to the nearby village to chance upon some easy food; maybe a cow or even a mid-sized goat would suffice for the time being. It’s a risky business but I had already done it four times. It was the middle of the night and there was not a stir. Even the air was still which was good as it would be difficult for the dogs to smell my presence. I had already eyed a nice rotund cow in the shed and was waiting for the right moment to strike. Just when I was about to pounce, the bleating of a goat alerted the members in the house. In a flash I had to decide what I should do. I leapt and ran but the channel was still a distance away. Suddenly a pack of dogs crossed my path and started chasing me. It took me a while to realize that I was running in the opposite direction and finally jumped into an empty torn-down shed. I was in panic and completely disoriented. The dogs kept circling the shed and in a short time there was a large crowd around armed with sticks and fire torches. I was trapped! This time when I looked in their eyes, it was not devoid of expression, in fact it was mixed with fear and a sense of victory; perhaps a certain degree of vengeance! The last thing I could remember was a sharp pain in my thigh after which I passed out. I had a faint sensation that I was being carried but could not gather an aorta of strength to move. Mentally I had succumbed to my fate that this was the end of me and my tenure in the forests.

I woke up groggy inside a cage surrounded by mangroves. My head was strangely heavy and I could feel something around my neck. Though felt a little heavy I could not believe that I was alive! I licked my paws to see whether this was a dream or a reality. I tried to get the feel of the “thing” around my neck with my paws. It resembled a necklace with a small locket, something which I have often seen around the neck of the womenfolk here. In my dazed stupor, I tried once to break open this new jewel around my neck but in vain. At a distance, a group of people on a boat were peering at me. Suddenly with a creaking noise, I sensed that the gate was opening up and without any further delay, I disappeared into the forest in three leaps and the din of the boat faded away.

Over a period of time I learnt to realize that the choices others make determine our destinies. When a Moule enters the forest, it is the choice I make which determines his fate. In the same way my fate is determined by the people when I set my foot in a village. This time they made a choice for me to live! There are two words that aptly describe our lives in the Sundarbans; agony and ecstasy. Within the ecstasy of these magical forests lies the agony. The agony of loss; of people and livelihoods and for denizens like me who are losing an inch of this forest every day to new misfortunes; both natural and man-made. As we both scrounge for space in a sinking world all I hope is that my tribe and I are able to survive these odds and make it to the future.

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Tuesday, 23 August 2016

The Therapy called "Baking"


“The measuring and mixing always smoothed out her thinking processes - nothing was as calming as creaming butter - and when the kitchen was warm from the oven overheating and the smell of baking chocolate, she took final stock of where she'd been and where she was going. Everything was fine.”  Jennifer Crusie, Maybe This Time

The kitchen has always been the most important space in my home. It started when I was seven. Here I would concentrate to make the perfect round roti while my sister would be re-living her geography classes in school by making “continental” flatbreads! (She is an amazing cook though and would prefer to have a roti maker to ease her off the distress of making them round!). My love for the kitchen as a space to innovate started under the auspices of my paternal grandmother. Though a dominating personality when it comes to handling the day to day life in a Bengali kitchen (or the “he(n)shel”), my paternal grandmother had an amazing flair for creating the perfect recipe; be it making the round, white luchi (deep-fried flatbread made out of refined flour) with kosha mangsho (spicy Bengali mutton curry), an orange sponge cake for our birthdays or patishapta (Bengali sweet recipe where flour-semolina pancakes are stuffed with coconut or kheer). I saw her completely transformed when she was in the kitchen, a space where she spent a large part of her time due to her husband’s (my paternal grandfather) immense appetite. It is from her that I imbibed a love for this space.

Little did I know that this space with a 40 liter oven (OTG) would help me overcome one of the most difficult times of my life! An 11 year relationship came to an end leaving me to be a single parent to my one and half year old daughter! Professionally I had just started my PhD research and had no clue about how to juggle between my daughter and work. I lost support at a time when I needed it the most. I moved out of the house full of memories to start afresh. But a lot more had to be done to sort out my life both personally and professionally. A 9 to 5 crèche for my daughter helped me get back to work and I completely immersed myself into this routine. But the past always has its way of lingering within our lives. The emotional turmoil within me found peace in the warmth of my kitchen and I would eventually calm down making a roast capsicum and basil pasta sauce or a shepherd’s pie for dinner! 

I soon realized that I could release the intense pain into something easily digestible-say a green apple, honey, cinnamon cake or a set of orange mocha muffins or a caramel custard. And with this started my rendezvous with baking. When memories started sneaking in, I moved to the kitchen and spent all the energy to whip up a perfect recipe for a bake. Baking became an addiction and many a times I would end up baking every single day in a week! Thus started the saga of carrot cakes, beetroot cakes, cinnamon pumpkin muffins, apple crumble, peanut butter and chocolate chip oats cookies, apple pie, chocolate ganache cake, banana walnut cake, Earl-Grey tea cake (my sister’s recipe), cinnamon chocolate brownies, baked custard and many more. Sometimes a hung-curd cheese cake or a no-bake chocolate-strawberry ganache tart would find its way in special occasions. My addiction led me to slowly accumulate some of the baking essentials over a period of time. Silicone moulds of different shapes (some bought and some gifted by my sister) poured in along with piping bags, cookie cutters and basting brushes. But one of the best buys I’ve had till now is a Bodum Bistro Mix and Bake set from TESCO for an incredible discounted price of eight pounds! A Pinterest account opened up a whole range of baking recipes and ample scope for improvisation.

Kuhu's birthday cake: Chocolate cinnamon whole wheat and ragi cake topped with butter-cream frosting, chocolate vermicelli and  colourful sprinklers

Earl Grey tea cake baked for a birthday

Chocolate-strawberry ganache tart

Cheese capsicum and black pepper muffins with Italian seasoning

Cinnamon choco-chip muffins

Mini apple pies
After a daylong work, baking was extremely therapeutic and I eagerly awaited for this mesmerizing experience back home. As the cake rose in the oven releasing the aroma, I felt as if all my agony vanished into thin air making me feel lighter and at peace! In the last two years, my OTG has been a constant companion and baking has been the most nourishing experience both for my heart and mind. Through the course, I have been able to realize one of the most important lesson in life: that nothing is permanent; and the sooner we accept this the better it is. Baking worked like a therapy for me, it helped me calm down and instilled the confidence back in me. Two years down the line, I see myself as a person who is more self-reliant and accepting of life the way it is. And somewhere through the whole experience, I realized that one has to find their own path to being happy and baking surely helped find my way :) 

Wednesday, 25 February 2015

How I missed my first snow leopard!

It was a windy October day in Kibber. An unusual chill in the wind felt to me, like a premonition. But I put that thought aside telling myself that I may be thinking too hard. Maybe the anticipation of spending two hard winter months with Kuhu in Kibber was making me anxious. Or maybe my worry was more immediate the nerve-wracking ride to Chicham village in the local “helicopter” later that day.  

Two and half months earlier, I arrived in this quaint little village at 4200m for my PhD fieldwork. After a year of internal battles and phases of confusion and emotional surges that often accompany motherhood, I decided to get back to my PhD and take my year-old daughter along with me to the field. I was apprehensive but decided I will take things as they come. I was there to study free-roaming dogs, to assess the threats on the wildlife and the local communities in the Upper Spiti Landscape. My work often took me away from the village, which meant that Kuhu had to get used to me being away for long periods of time. Luckily for me, she did not take long to adjust to the high-altitude climate and all the new people around her. 

A snow clad Kibber village at 4200m. PC: Chandrima Home

Overlooking Chicham village from Kibber on a clear day. PC: Chandrima Home

The plan was to camp in Chicham for three days to carry out a winter dog count and conduct interviews of the people in the village. Fighting my nervousness, I finally decided to go ahead with my plans. The Kibber-Chicham “helicopter” is in fact a ropeway with a carrier which was earlier used for towing cement across to build a bridge between the two villages. A bridge, which is supposed to come up there, has been 'under construction' for the last 11 years as a result of shifting political power and bureaucratic priorities. Instead, people make do with this ropeway, to ferry themselves and cargo across the river. Sometimes the carrier will have as many as 8-10 people on board. LPG cylinders and even an occasional motor bike and cycle are carried across in the all-purpose carrier. The only maintenance carried out is an occasional change of ropes. There has been one accident till now but luckily the person got away with only a broken arm and leg.

 The Kibber-Chicham "helicopter". PC: Chandrima Home

I decided to go across with Kuhu because I was reassured by the people who accompanied me. I swallowed nervously a couple of times, sat inside the carrier with Kuhu on my lap and in a fraction of a second we had gone midway. Kuhu was unexpectedly quiet while I sat there mesmerized by the gorge. The water in the stream danced over the sedimentary rocks and the interplay of sun and shadow created a beautiful spectacle. I remembered my geography class in school about the colours of rocks. But I have to admit that I was relieved when we reached the other side! To get to Chicham we still had to climb for half an hour. The chill in the wind persisted and in spite of many layers of warm clothing, Kuhu was uncomfortable and cried continuously. Only when she was covered by an extra blanket and tucked inside Lamaji’s jacket did she stop. And to think it was only end October! The only consolation on that walk were the lammergeiers that circled above us. 


Our journey to Chicham. PC: Tanzin Thuktan
Kuhu tucked inside Lamaji's jacket. PC: Kesang Chunit

Sherpaji’s house was large and spacious but since winter was approaching the tandoor (a locally made metal oven used as a room heater as well as to cook) was shifted to the smaller kitchen adjoining the room. After a simple meal of dal and rice, I decided to go around the village and conduct some interviews, leaving Kuhu under Champa ji’s (Sherpa ji’s wife) care. By the time I got back, it was 4:30pm and Kuhu had not slept at all in my absence. The heat from the tandoor and cups of namkeen chai (butter tea) warmed us up. My serious efforts of putting Kuhu to sleep ended up futile and she kept tossing and turning on my lap. She sat up and suddenly within a split second she swooned over the tandoor and banged her forehead. Though I immediately moved her away, I knew that the 350-400°C of heat would have had serious impact! Kuhu was in tears and I in panic. 

For a short while, I went completely blank, but luckily I recovered quickly to take stock of the situation. Her forehead was swollen, her nose and lips scalded and she was in terrible pain. None of the local remedies applied (toothpaste, honey) would calm her and I realized that I need to head to Kaza for immediate medical assistance. An SOS was sent to Kibber. With great horror I realized that I would have to cross the ropeway again and now in the dark!  My field assistants had gone back to Kibber and I had to request somebody from Chicham village to tow me over. With a prayer on my lips, I sat in the “helicopter” while it moved slowly on the rails. But the trip from Chicham to Kibber is a climb and the ropes have to be pulled harder to move. At one point we were stuck in the middle of the ropeway and the carrier was swaying to and fro. I closed my eyes to calm myself and promised that this would be the first and the last time I would get Kuhu to Chicham! If only we could make it through this time somehow. Those ten minutes seemed like ten hours and only when Kalzang and Lamaji arrived on the other side with a vehicle did I feel relieved. Strangely, Kuhu who was crying incessantly earlier, stopped as soon as we got into the 'helicopter'. The Community Health Center in Kaza had a 24 hr emergency unit where she was given immediate medication. Thankfully, the injuries were not severe and only required antiseptic dressing everyday till all the scalded areas healed.

 Kuhu sitting near the tandoor a few hours before her accident. PC: Kesang Chunit

A selfie with Shri (Kesang Chunit). PC: Kesang Chunit

By the time we left Kaza, it was already 10:00pm. It was dark with no moonlight and the mountains looked ominous in silhouette. Only the dim twinkling lights in the villages around brought some comfort. Just as we were entering Kee village, Kuhu started demanding for her feed and in the midst of the pandemonium Kalzang suddenly shouted in “Snow Leopard”! I tried desperately to gain a glimpse but Kuhu's bawling distracted me. The ghost had vanished into the mountains in three leaps. Kalzang initially thought that it was a dog but when the vehicle came closer, he saw the rosettes on the leopard's coat clearly. He thought it was a sub-adult. I felt numb. I have always felt I was jinxed when it comes to animal sightings in the wild and the latest incident reinforced that feeling. But I consoled myself saying that my daughter needed my attention more than the snow leopard! I do not regret it and if I am lucky the ghost of Spiti will definitely oblige me some day. Till then I will make do with the photos from the camera traps J

Camera trap image of the "ghost" of the Himalayas (Photo taken from www.snowleopard.org)

There are days in field when one just does not feel right. Maybe it is important to pay heed to these warnings. In hindsight, I feel I should have listened to the chill in the wind that day and abandoned that trip to Chicham. But these were lessons learnt, for both me and Kuhu. I learnt to heed these internal warnings and Kuhu definitely learnt to dread the fire!


Experiencing our first snow together. PC: Ajay Bijoor